10 sundays!

WHA! I CAN FINALLY HEAVE A SIGH OF RELIEF! AFTER CHIONGING LIKE MAD FOR 3 WEEKS, I AM DONE WITH THE DARN 2ND SUBMISSION TOMORROW!!

This stupid report, only worth 15%, but i slog like mad!! Hahaz!! Because of this project, i have put my Human Resource Essay on hold for 2 weeks and it is due next Monday! Worth 35% but i haven't even start yet! So SCREWED! Hahaz!!

But after finishing this report, i feel so much better man.. Like a whole load of pressure of me.. Survived with those stupid nuts! Now i have to decide whether i want to drop them and what are my plans after that.. Got 2 more submissions to come and if i have to do another 1 woman show, i am going to go mad!! TWICE!!Hahaz!!

Have been having really weird dreams recently.. For consequetively 3 nights, i have been dreaming.. 1st night, dreamt that i was back in Singapore, at home with my parents and brother.. 2nd night, dreamt that i was at Bedok South hawker centre with my mum, dad, aunt and neighbours.. Then dreamt that i ordered food like char siew, tau huay, chin chow and WAFFLE WITH BLUEBERRY!!! WHA!! When i woke up i was like, SHIT! JUST A DREAM............. Then last night, ultimate one, i dreamt that i was RAPED! LIKE WTH LAH!!! I think i too stressed out already! FREAKING SHIT, DREAM BUT FELT DAMN REAL, DAMN SCARED LAH!

Okie, i can sense that i am super high now.. Hahaz!! 1 week of the school holidays has passed in a flash and tomorrow i need to wake up at 8am to move my ass to St Lucia for a project meeting and lessons after that.. It is time to start studying and continue chionging again! I have really neglected all my other subjects for the Hospitality Technology Project lah!!

OH! The babes are so nice please!! They went to Mackay and got me a souvenier!! A tribal looking anklet that we ALL have to wear on our right ankles!! I LOVE IT PLEASE!! THANKS SO MUCH BABES!!! =) Joyce, Ming Xian, Shuk Wai, Xue Ying and Yiwen!! In alphabetical order, thank you all so so so much!! =)SO! 10 more Sundays to the end of this semester!!! Oh my goodness!! I cannot believe i have survived till this far!! Anyway, over this week, i learnt 3 important phrases:

Lisa: Do your best and God will do the rest.
Dad: Seek a solution! No use grumbling!
Leslie: When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!

Also, thanks to all who supported me!! My son Khairul, Rennie, Sherry, Hazel, Candice, Swee Kee, Ian and so many many more!! If i have neglected your name, i sm sorry.. But i really am blessed to have such wonderful friends and families!!

Okie, i think i should go and sleep already.. It is getting late.. Till then, take care my friends and love ya all!!

11 Sundays..

Well, today i took Xue Ying's advice to not do any work but just rest.. It has been an exciting day with loads of Television shows, celebrating of Shuk Wai's 21st Birthday and just slacking!

Woke up and cooked barley for everyone.. Then had nice chewy soba for lunch with Xue Ying.. Then more slacking and sneaky plans to surprise Shuk Wai.. Then it just got better!!

Had BBQ to celebrate Shukie's Birthday! No charcoal, but gas tank and frying pans.. Yes, frying pans on the grill cause it is a pain to clean up the grill, so we used non stick pans on the grill to cook the food.. Hahaz.. Somehow i feel that BBQ with no charcoal is not considered BBQ.. Hahaz! I ate like yummy chicken breast, crabstick, roasted capsicum, sausages and the ultimate one, 6 LARGE chilli prawns!! OMG, i have NEVER had so much prawns at a BBQ before lah! This is my first time and i tell you, the prawns are GOOD! Hahaz!! Then we had strawberry cheescake for dessert made by Colleen which i helped her with yesterday! Hahaz!!

Now i have got a stomach ache.. Don't know why, maybe too much prawns.. Hahaz.. So now my tummy is churning but thankfully it is getting better!Yeah! Another week has passed!! I am 1 week closer to the end of this semester!! Just hope that this week of semester break, i am able to do alot of work and things will get better... =)

11 Sundays left!! Counting down this way reminds me of how i used to irritate Ian and Peilin in Shanghai.. Hahaz.. But it makes me feel that time is passing faster by counting it this way...

To end: Thanks Charity for advising me that no matter what, things still have to get done.. I miss ya... Lisa, i miss you too!! =)

Tears of fear and frustration..

After so many disappointments, spoon-feeding and frustration, i finally broke down today.. Out of desperation, fear and frustration, i could no longer hold back.. In total, i cried 3 times today, with the night one being the most drama one..

Morning: After seeing that one did not do anything and another totally going out of point, i teared..
Afternoon: Chatting with Lisa and asking her to pray with me, i teared..
Night: When Xue Ying came to ask me about it, i cried.. Have not cried so hard in a while..

I am at my wits end.. Time and time again i have given the both of you chances to prove me wrong.. Over and over again you two just don't seem to bother.. Why? I really regret grouping with the two of you, i should have sticked with Jeremy.. So many regrets, yet nothing can be done.. I seriously think that if i do the project myself, it would be much better than with the two of you.. Because of this project, i have neglected my other assignments.. Is it fair to me?

Thanks Xue Ying for lending me the listening ear and comforting me in today's drama.. My eyes are tired from the crying, i am burned out and mentally just gone.. I really need help.. Monday at 12pm sharp, if i do not receive the assignments or if i receive half-hearted assignments, i am going straight to the tutor.. Don't blame me for being mean, because you two has done this upon yourselves..

Updating in progress...

Next week will be a week of semester break!! This semester break is really in the right time as i have so many assignments due!! I have 2 due the following week, and another due on the monday after the following week.. ARGH!! With naoless and f up project mates, things just gets more interesting!!

Got Human Resource Essay to write, got Tourism Sustainability article to present and Hotel Technology proposal for submission.. Lucky this semester I only have 1 subject that relies heavily on group work.. Because if i have more than 1 with this current group, i can go eat shit and die.. Hahaz!

I SERIOUSLY have never seen such irresponsible groupmates.. Decides to have fun with family for a full week without submitting the task that was assigned.. Can come pick up the other group mate, cannot come for project meeting or even bother to show me what has been done.. Another one, submit the task late, with super sloppy work.. After me taking the time to edit for her, she decides to leave the project as it is and not bother to add in the missing information.. I can only express myself this way : WTF?!

Argh! I am praying and hoping really hard that it will get better.. Have been giving feedback to them, but seems to be falling on deaf ears.. This Saturday, we will be meeting again.. I have stressed on them finishing thier own parts and we shall compile on Saturday.. STRESSED ON it.. So now, i just have to see whether they will finish or not.. Because they gave me the assurance that they would.. So now, the only thing i can do is literally sit and wait.. Also got to do my own parts well lah..

Went to City yesterday with Shuk Wai and had Krispy Kreme Donut! Ate a Strawberry JAm filled donut which tasted funny.. Think the oil not so fresh.. I prefer the traditional cinnamon one.. This donut spoilt my appetite le... Then i went to meet a Hannah, my Korean project mate for tourism sustainability.. She is fine i guess.. So far things have been going well.. So yeah.. Then we went to have Korean Food with Collen, Xue Ying, Shuk Wai, Hannah and me for dinner which i was quite pissed as i waited really long for my order and it just did not come, so i decided to cancel it.. Upon canceling, i found out that the server actually took a wrong order for me somemore!! ARGH...

Was really sleepy on the way home from City.. Then my phone rang and i saw "Withheld".. Was wondering who would it be and took me quite a while to identify the caller.. My mum decided to hello and hello over the phone so many times, i was wondering who is this person on the line?! Hahz!!It is a really chilly night today, but amazingly when i was on the phone with my mum, i felt so warm and fuzzy inside out! It was a really comforting phonecall to make my day a better one despite all the shitty groupmates that i have.. Thanks ma, you never fail to amaze me with your special powers! All the love, care and support has been so wonderous! Thank you so much! No words can truly express how much i love and respect you!

Okie, enough of blogging for the day.. I need to get back to work! ARGH! Need to focus and keep moving forward!! Chiong this week!! Get all the assignments done!! Go go go!!


Something random: I miss my poly babes!! Of course i always miss my family and friends too.. =)

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU GOR!

WOW! My brother is FANTASTIC LAH! Just saw his FunKtion dance performance and my goodness! You guys are good!!

This is the link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXTNXdYgBx8
and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqMBnpwkL-k

It is really amazing how his love for dance has developed him to be such an amazing dancer!! I am super duper proud of you gor!! But i guess now it is time to get cracking on work again? Hahaz..

Oh wells.. Today has been a not bad day.. Until the night.. Haiz.. Same thing, they project work that was given to me, was incomplete.. Not only that, it is very very sloppy work.. And i am still missing the tasks from another one..That is it man.. On Tuesday i am going to tell them how i feel.. And pray hard that they get what i am saying and why i am saying it man..

ARGH.. I mean, which nut does not want to do well? Right? If you two put in the effort, i will see it one.. I will feel and know it.. But now, i am so not feeling the effort man.. And that sucks because submission is in 2 weeks time and we are not even like 10% done?! I am more worried for projects than exam paper now.. That is so weird!

Tuesday, i am going to find strength and be frank.. Maybe a little drama would do the trick too.. Hmmm...

12 more Sundays to end of semester 1!! Yeah!! Tomorrow is another start of the week and i am keeping myself positive!

Finding Strength..

It is really difficult and different to find strength when you are away from home.. I use to find strength from the love of my family and friends.. Not that i do not know, its just that now it is different.. Physically when a person is not around, it seems like i am not able to find the strength..

Being miles away from home has made me home sick.. But i am trying to cope with it because ultimately i have to.. But it gets even more depressing when you get naoless project mates that make you worry 24/7.. I have tried to approach the two of you with a more patient and guiding method.. I have even went to the extent to borrow books for the two of you, fed you with the information and stuff.. You naozups just need to type it, at least type the basic information that you all have.. Is it that difficult?

I am really tired.. Worrying my ass off.. That is one thing i hate about project, group project.. Sometimes, it is just so not fair.. You are doing your part, but others are not and they drag your grades down.. 60% coursework leh.. All those in Temasek Polytechnic will surely know that this 60% is very crucial.. This is meant to be a 4 in a group project, we are the only ones with only 3 in a group.. Out of this 3, i am the only one who is pushing the group.. Is it fair? It is super tiring.. I am scared, scared stiff, scared to tears! HAIZ!

I just hope that things will be better.. I have expressed my views in a very nice way.. To boost us to work harder.. I hope you two get the signal, time to get cracking! I don't want, seriously don't want to resort to yelling or even doing this project all by myself.. Please, i beg the two of you, PLEASE get cracking...

13 More Sundays to the end of semester 1..

Rainy Day..

It rained the whole day today from morning till now.. It is FREAKING cold and i seriously miss the hot soups that my granny or mum makes.. Haiz.. Stayed home the whole day to do my tutorials and projects.. Did my business law quiz and got 2 questions wrong.. Very depressing cause i so want to score well..

It is either PMS or just mood swings.. I really miss home, really really do.. At least i am not weeping like when i was in Shanghai, but my heart feel the ache.. Kinda worse than when i was in Shanghai though and i seriously do not know why.. I have got school tomorrow, at 8am.. Again i have to wake up by 530am.. Oh my.. Bless me man...

I want to go home soon!! I rejoice as a week ends because i know i am a week closer to home.. But then again, as the week pass, i am closer to the project submissions and exams.. Haiz..

Ma and Pa, i miss your presence, miss slacking in the hal watching television together.. Gor, i miss the times we disturb one another, make loads of noise before we sleep.. I miss the fun with Charity and Lisa, it sucks not being physically there.. I miss all my poly babes, i miss the great dinner sessions we have.. I miss trianings, getting the adrenalin rush... I miss my son..

Oh freak, its one of the emo sessions again.. It gets quite irritating right? Buck up Sheryl!! You have survived 5 weeks, going to be 6!! SNAP OUT OF IT!